I will never let you fall...

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay, woah stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

~Latest fave song in my mp3's :)~

Past tense...

last night, i was invited to a friend's b'day party, a friend from the past. at first, i hesitant to go but i keep reminding myself that i should not bear any grudges anymore. too bad, after tonight i just realise that the wounds still remains even when i said to myself that everything is ok, that i've move on. it's been a long time but from the way i see it, none of it has changed. they are still them, those people that i left behind. those people that taught me betrayal do exist, that trust is overrated, that being good and honest doesn't pay but being cunning does. forgive me if all the words that came out is so unusual of me but i need to let it out somehow. i'm no angel so it's ok for me to be angry once in a while. i know i shouldn't dwell to much about the past, maybe some people will just forgive and forget but this is one past that i wish i would never remember.

there'll be brighter days to come and things will be better......

Finding peace...

at Meragang Beach yesterday with the siblings, a quite and cold evening...

Quote of the day

'Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye' - H.Jackson Brown Jr

The SCBees...

Dinner@ Fairway Rest, RGBCC (i think i spell it right..) last night with our recently formed SCBees..

Temptations...

'It is not the great temptations that ruin us; it is the little ones' - John W. DeForest

Temptations, such a big word to begin with. it does come in many forms in a lot of different ways. once in a while we'll experienced it whatever temptations that comes to us especially a desire for ones affection. how can some people so easily or wholeheartedly surrendering themselves to it without thinking of the consequences? well, a 'salute' those people who dare because for me, it will take me a great amount of courage even just to take one step forward. like what i used to say to a friend once, its the feeling of regret of how it turned out is what worries me not the excitement towards it. i know humans are not a perfect being, sometimes it pulls us so strong we never thought we could escape. well that depends on the situation we're in. if we're willing to take the risk, well its our call because i can't answer for anyone, its up to our own judgement to rationalise whatever actions that we are taking...

Don't stop dancing...

there are times in life when we want to stop living. put everything that we had now on halt or throw it all away. i know for sure, that life is unfair but hey, for whatever reasons we're giving we still have to move on anyway. we can't stop dancing just because our shoes don't fits anymore, we just have to find a right pair even if it took us ages to find the perfect fit. that's how life is, we can't stop living just because we're left broken hearted or we failed in doing something. maybe we just need to sit and look back, find the cause and then move on. we only have one life, its a waste if we didn't use it to the fullest. enjoy it and be happy, love our family and friends and appreciated those people around us, laughed as hard as we can and don't get caught up in our sadness cos i know at the end, even if the scars still remain, the wound will eventually healed...

At times life is wicked
and I just can’t see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn’t enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
Feel this way

Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away, away

~Creed - Don't Stop Dancing~

Reminisce..

found this inside my sister's folder, i'm blogging at easyway now using her laptop since she needs to borrow mine coz its the only one that supports the printer i'm using.(my printer only supports WinXP and such, no Vista obviously). this pics was taken in s'pore, in one of our frequent trips long time ago. the image is not that clear unfortunately but you're welcome to guess which one is me :)

The point of view...

"Those who play the game do not see it as clearly as those who watch." - Chinese Proverb

somehow, i find this is true. sometimes, we can't see things clearly by ourselves until somebody else did it on our behalf. like,a passion of someone towards another person or a betrayal or some other things that our eyes can't see. usually, its all those little things that matters cos in a way, it helps other people's observance to validate the facts that whatever that happens is true and not something out of the imagination. i know for certain, some people prefer to have the facts right or a logic explaination for everything cos i know it helps to rationalise things but sometimes, when its about matters of the heart, facts and figures won't really count. it would cost less or probably nothing at all.....

maybe i'm wrong this time, but what if i'm right..?

A brand new day...

i just finished reading a book last night, its called 'For One More Day' by Mitch Albom. thanks to lyn for lending me that book, i know i'm a slow reader but at least i can finish the book faster than the other one, maybe because of the interesting story :) did anyone ever experienced that a book, movie or something else can made us change our ways of seeing things. it can made us value the time and our life more and to remind ourselves not to take it for granted like what i often did once upon a time. i know i made some mistakes in the past, not something that can be proud of but things happen. everyday is a brand new day, a chance to change for something good. maybe not as perfect but better....


'Its not that i can't live without you, its just that i don't wanna try'
-Anonymous

Quote of the day

"Choices that deal with love are like alcohol, when you are under the influence of it you tend to do things that you regret later on."
-Anonymous

how do we know we're making the right choice..?

Take control...

how can we avoid some things that looks inevitable? run away and hide somewhere, pretending it ever existed or just face the consequenses of our actions? whatever the options are, it is us who determine what's the right move will be. lets face it, sometimes what our heart says won't always what our head agreed on. so which one will we choose? i know for a fact, that i made some mistakes of letting some things getting out of hand when supposedly i can avoid it from happening. but there some things that we don't have the control over even how good we're in avoiding it especially when it comes to other people's emotions. maybe from our side, we can stop it from going on further but what about the other party? how can we convinced them to stop without even breaking their hearts? maybe for some, it's an easy question to answer but when you see it from my view, it'll be the hardest ones. but sooner or later, i still have to take control of the situation how costly my actions will be. risky, but i know it's worth it.....

It lies in all of us..

"Passion, it lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir ... open its jaws, and howl. It speaks to us, guides us, passion rules us all; and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts - sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow, empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion, we'd be truly dead."
-Anonymous

Tangled..

there are some things that needs my full attention at the moment. honestly, i don't really know how to settle it or sort it out but at the end of the day i still have to do it. partly, maybe its my fault also for keep dragging all this down for so long but hey, that's just me and that's one habit which hard for me to break. everything was so tangled up and messy, lots of secrets and lies happening around me i just don't know which is right and which one is wrong anymore. one question, who will you save first, your obligation or the object of your affection? unfortunately, thats the choice i'm not ready to make. i need to make sure, but i just don't know how sure i want it to be. hmm.. i'm not making any sense at the moment, am i?


the one thing i won't let go.....

The thin line...

"There seems to be a kind of order in the universe... in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own."
-Katherine Anne Porter


There's a thin line between love and hate......

Masquerade..

Mas-quer-ade - false outward show; façade; pretense: a hypocrite's masquerade of virtue

life, sometimes is like a masquerade show. we often pretend to be somebody else than who we really are. we met a lot of different types of human everyday and mind you, not all of them are as honest or as genuine as we thought they could be. its just a pretenses, for some reasons as for myself hard to understand..

November 3rd...

it is 3rd of November, a new day and a new month. a start of another hectic month in my calendar. how fast time flies, with a lot of questions still left unanswered...