If You Just Realize.....

"Our subconscious minds have no sense of humor, play no jokes and cannot tell the difference between reality and an imagined thought or image. What we continually think about eventually will manifest in our lives" - Sidney Madwed

Love's Not There Anymore.....

when a relationship ended, both parties should have the last say on everything. sometimes, some of them would even consider giving it another try. unless there's options left and if it's not then maybe it's time to say goodbye. but for some, letting go was never an option. they are willing to go an extra mile to save their relationship rather than to just say goodbye. some even willing to endure a great deal of physical pain thus it could make them emotionally unstable. i know, some things are not as easy as it seems. there's more to it than what meets the eye. i know it's hard to let go, cos i've been there myself. it was never easy to say 'its over'. life was never being fair. when they stop loving us and it was so hard to bear, maybe its good to just pack up and leave....

Six Degrees.....

did it ever occur to us how small the world can be? or how connected we are from each other even when they live far away from us? or how long has it been since we ever saw them? anyone is connected to someone, in some way or another. either its their long lost relatives, an old friend or foes, an ex-lover or a so-called 'crush', colleagues or team mates or whatever it is, there's a connection in there thru anyone of us. when we dig deep or even just by saying one word or a name, the chances or possibility of them being known are high. well, of course there were times when the chances are rare but in the end there would be something else that could connect them to anyone of us. it happens, and i don't think it only happened to me. everyone have their own six degrees somehow.....

the stakes are high.....

Of all people.....

for anyone who knew me, knows very well how i felt about taking a certain amount of risk when it comes to love. i used to give advise to anyone that when you like a person make sure that we tell them how we felt. but honestly, i didn't applied it to myself. i know, shame on me for not 'walking the talk' but as a commitment phobic myself, its not something that i really enjoy doing. but somehow, something happen and change how i look at things and it does turn my life around. for a first time after a very long time of avoiding the issue, i finally decide to take the risk and honestly, it's something that's worth it. at first i thought that i'm making a wrong move but at the end of the day, it is something that i should have been doing for a long time. but mind you, i'm not into the commitment thingy just yet cos at the moment i'm just trying to take things a day at a time. thanks to a certain someone, i finally making a giant leap forward....

catch you when you fall, time after time...

Love is...

"Love withers with predictability; its very essence is surprise and amazement. To make love a prisoner of the mundane is to take its passion and lose it forever.."
- Leo Buscaglia

It's The Holiday......

Selamat Menyambut Maulidur Rasul for all muslim readers and anyone out there and happy holiday for students too. it's a public holiday and a start of first school holiday break. i'm not so sure how many days it is though since i left school for so many years now and i don't even bother to ask my brothers, my bad haha..anyway, hope everyone enjoy it as much as i do:)

Tagged!

Here are two simple rules:
1) Copy and then Answer the questions, if you're tagged
2) Tag other blogger buddies! (as many as you want)

Tell me your real name
Suryana Bte Hj Emran

Your nickname(s)
ant, yana, anna, yan, she(thx to hjh saf!), sur(yea, sad but true!)

Most weird name you were called
Suri, SHE(for anyone working at my dept would know bout it)

How about the most annoying?
suri(what makes it annoying is how the person pronounce it, arghh)

Your sex
Female

Your sexuality
hmm..how do i explain..

Your Birthdate
sept 9th

Your sign
the Virgin :p

Your current location
home sweet home :)

Tell us about your lineage
malay, chinese, indian, one-third each!

Your ethinicity
malay saja lah! lol

Are you single/taken/attached/not available/available/married
single but not available, haha..

Highschool/College/University/Working?
working

What subjects or course are you taking?
maths and public relations

What's your occupation?
counting for people how much debt they should pay every month..

Do you drive?
yea

Legally or illegally?
Legally, although recently i just found out i forgot to renew my license for a year! a bad combination of memory loss and an all year long hectic schedule..

Do you smoke?
once upon a time...

What is/are your fear(s)?
losing faith,having a mental block or being financially unstable..

Honestly, do you think your attractive?
i never thought i didn't...

Smart?
hmm...well, yea!

Funny?
maybe..

What is/are your most over-used expressions?
can't think of any, ada kan?

What about your most over-used pose?
look at my pics then you decide..

Would you date someone ten years younger or older?
older? yea,maybe. younger? no further comment...

Best physical asset(s) of the opposite sex?
their toys, esp cars or gadgets

Best non-physical asset(s) of the opposite sex?
trustworthy, and respecting the opposite sex

Best physical and non-physical asset YOU think you have?
physical? someone dear ever said its my 'smiling eyes',non-physical? the ability to make people laugh in a bad day :)

Okay! DONE! Now list out the people you want to tag! - let em' know if you want them to answer
craven
cyrus 288

Nothing But The Ordinary......

people always want something they can't have. some even go to the extreme just to get it without thinking of the consequences but little did people realise is how they often took things for granted after their wishes are fulfilled. maybe for some, the idea of those things stays forever cemented in their mind. their loved ones will always be there even how cruel they might be. people often crave for those finer things in life without making any effort to appreciate what's in front of them while they could. some people are selfish, aren't they..?

My Pride Is All I Have.....

Ego - "An inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others"

Ego. it's not that hard to define this word cos i know everyone have their own. High or low it is depends on how we manage it. Some people keep their ego high so that no one would ever mess with it, or maybe we could called that an arrogance or maybe a personal pride. Most people would do anything to protect it and willing to stand up for it but deep down, little that we knew that’s just one way not to show how fragile they were inside. sometimes we could see those facts especially when their ego was bruised. Correct me if I’m wrong but based on what I saw and experienced myself, this facts are true. a person with an ego usually keep blaming everybody than themselves, even if it's clearly stated that everything was entirely their fault. maybe it's not my place to judge cos i even have my own but sometimes when you meet those people with that kind of egocentric style you just can't help but wonder...

Missing in action.....

sorry for the lack of post. i've been so very busy for the last few weeks, all work and no play makes me felt so stress out. i don't even go online for weeks now, which made a lot of people wonder and keep asking me where have i been for the last few weeks. some even text me and asked me if i was going somewhere or if everything was okay. i am okay btw, it's just with a lot of things that needs to be taken care of just took away those leisure moments that i used to have before.lucky i don't have to work this weekend, so at least i could have a bit of time to relax and unwind...

taking it a day at a time....

Tell me it's real......

so many things has change in just a short period of time.when you thought it will never end or will everything stays the same, in just seconds it turn to be something that was way too unexpected to handle. once in a while, i still ask myself if those things are real and not just some dream. it is real. what i need to do now is just sit back and appreciate what's there in front of me.....

the one thing i want the most....

Live each day.....

"If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody.." - Chinese Proverb

Finding joy...

every people deserved a chance to find happiness in their own ways. in whatever form it may be, it's up to them to decide but let it be something good and useful. mind you, nobody can stay in grief and sorrow as long as they live. we need to put a smile in our face or laugh as hard as we could. find a reason, get a chance and just enjoy life while we still can :)


Happiness at the least expected places...

A passing thought...

sometimes, when you thought you're getting over something and partly trying to let go, there will be things that make you stop and realize, it was something worth holding on to...

Wishful Thinking.....

Love is such a beautiful thing. We see it everyday in everywhere we go. I know sometimes, life can be bad, messed up and some people can felt unjustified by it. But deep down, how cynical a human can be, at the end they could give in to the temptation of wanting to be in love, or wishing to be in one. It gave you a feeling so powerful, any man couldn’t even comprehend or put it in words. sometimes, it's already at the palm of our hand but we just let it slip away. cause of it? uncertainty on something that's not visible for our eyes to see, can't touch but just felt it and the worst thing that could happen, we just left it unspoken. not all people have the courage to say out loud anything that we felt in our heart. that's what makes human special. not all of them are the same, some are brave enough to take those chances and walk out with a head held high but some are just trying to find the courage to live each day and contemplating and asking themselves the question of 'What If'. what if things were different? what if fate doesn't made us meet rather than putting us in such a complicated situations? the questions will always lingers in our head until at one point we wouldn't be able to take it anymore. the actions that we take will determine the course of our future, either good or bad, it lays in us...

A Comeback Season.....

welcome to the month of March, the third month in the calendar. a lot of things has happen last month and i do hope things would go well also this month and months ahead. sorry for the lack of post, just need a little space on my own plus i'm short of ideas what to post. last week was also one of my busiest week. even my siblings ask me how come they didn't see me online for a long time, never thought anyone would notice though :)

today, SCB participate in a netball tourney organised by HSBC. we came third place in team B, not bad for us who didn't really have a lot of time to practice. B-Mobile team won the game, followed by Runner-up BIBD and HSBC, the current favorite. it was an unexpected win but i think B-Mobile team deserved it. i met a lot of my friends there, fellow players. it made me miss those 'netball session at MOD' that i left behind months ago.maybe for some people they won't understand what i'm talking about here cos there's only a few who knew about it. maybe it's time for a comeback, it's been a while since but now i felt like i'm ready to face everything again.....