lost of words....

i haven't post anything for the last few days, i'm kinda lost in a moment plus been busy with the workloads (as usual). well, in 3 days we'll be celebrating another new year. so what's your resolution for next year, could it be the same or much better?

It's X'mas....

pictures taken from our trip to s'pore recently, it's was a buzy time of the year since most people shopped for x'mas. we came back with a lot of sore muscles but we do have fun. will upload some pictures next time ayte :)

home....

i'm back,finally home after 4 days in s'pore. still feel tired though and my leg was still sore but i'm in the upbeat mood to get back and face the reality. let's just say when i'm away, some things are more clearer..will update with the pictures soon :)

Holiday.....

selamat hari raya to all muslim readers,im mobile blogging now in my flight so have to make it quick before take off hehe.. p.s. happy belated bday 2 my baby bro fifi, lots of love *hugs* plus a friend bday tomorrow, you know who u are, happy advance bday geng :p. i'll update my blog again in few days time, now i just what to enjoy my long awaited break :)

what's in the closet?

firstly, many thanks to my colleague, Nurul for inviting us for the bbq party last night. we really have so much fun, can't believe we just stay there for hours talking and laughing about a lot of stuff, i was supposed to be there only for two hours but then..anyway, we could do it again some other times with all those ASC's gila2 people, yes? :p

do you ever wonder, how well we know those people around us, our family, friends or the loved ones? even when we already living with them for years, shared everything together, do we ever wonder if they still have skeletons in their closet? everyone have their own secrets, no matter if its just small matters or something huge that can rock the world, still it is something thats worth keeping.....

The real world.....

the world is like an open classroom. once you step out of the door, there will be a lot of valuable lessons we learned along the way. we'll experienced things, either good or bad. there will be some things that we regret doing but at the end we'll examined it and try not to make the same mistakes again. after all, we just ordinary humans, no one can escape the cycle. its how we handle the situation is what really matters......

We are who we are, some people will never change.....

Love don't wait.....

humans, even how invincible they think there are, will never escape the power of love how hard they try. even when we say we're not ready for it, it can catch us off guard. the idea of being in a company of someone that we can talk to in good or bad times, someone that we chose to had a fight with, shared all those little details, someone that can put a smile to our face and made our days better, who can make our heartbeat faster every time we saw them and made us miss them like crazy, the list goes on. i know in reality, not all people have the luck finding those people the first time. sometimes they have to pass a lot of hurdles and setbacks just to get to the point where they'll be happy in the end. but there are some people who stayed in a relationship just because that's the only thing that made them feel secure even though they can't even see the happy ending at the end. some people stayed because of the sense of security that was provided, let love take the backseat. in the real world, money can be the drive force for everything and they can even buy love. i know, that love sometimes was not enough, people need something more to what people can offer. everyday, as it passes i saw what love can do to people. at one point we always had all this qualities that we want in a person but in just a simple twist of fate we end up getting less or more than what we bargain for. i even knew someone who was from a different styles and background but ended up falling for each other. how hard they try to convince themselves that it was never gonna work but in the end it was a different story, like what Sidney Shaw said 'Your heart never seems to follow what your head tells you to do..'

as the wall starts to crumble......

When we let it free....

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not.
~Meredith Grey~

It never seems to heal...

some people say, time heal old wounds. but i don't really think that phrase applies for me too. it's been years since but the wounds don't seems to heal. i've been trying to put a positive mind on everything, forgiving and even trying to forget but nothing seems to work. i know, i shouldn't dwell to much on the past especially my not-so fancy past life but once in a while we tend to look back to all the things that made us being bitter in the first place. call me cruel but frankly, i don't really give a damn anymore. how i wish i could run and leave everything behind.....

hectic..

it's been days since my last post. been busy lately, since I’m taking my leave in 13 days time i have to finish all my work before then. gosh it's was hectic, with a lot of appointments and such. i just can't wait for my long awaited break. plus i'm lost of ideas what to post, there's no word of wisdom came out in my head. it was a total blank,i just hope i can regain back everything soon....

All the good things..

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."
~ Good Will Hunting~

giving in to all the good things that lays in front of me...

Any given sundays..

the usual part of my sundays, watching sunsets..

Dare To Dream...

first of all my condolence to one of my colleague, Kathy for the demise of her father yesterday morning. our hearts goes out to you through this hard times. Al-Fatihah...

on the lighter note, our ASC's team plus Phone Banking & Bunut Branch was participating in SCB's Vision of 2011 - Dare To Dream challenge yesterday afternoon which took place at Muhhibah Room, RBA Club. we get to give a showcase or presentation of what's our vision would be, even our own CEO also participate! well, it was a large turnout of staff yesterday, most of them are supporting their own depts. lucky we don't have to share our seats like most of them cos we came way too early to practice our moves. we only got a consolation price of trophy and BND$100, not too bad because we only had a chance to practice yesterday. well, no matter if we win or lose, us willing to take the challenge is what really counts and we had a chance to get to know each other better and above all of that we're having fun..

but out of the sudden, i felt something missing inside of me. honestly, i don't have the answer when the fun and the laughter just simply stop and disappear without me even noticing it. maybe i just have to dig deep inside me or maybe, i don't have to do nothing at all...

Over you..

time heal all wounds, even when it took a large amount of our time and an amount of effort to make it happen but believe me it will. it's been years since you gone, trace of you still left in my mind but it only to remind myself that i won't fall to the same trap twice. maybe for some people think i'm not truly moving on but as in today, i truly am. don't ask me why, after all this years. lets just say i've found the reason....

hearts was never meant to be broken......

December..

it's 1st of December, the last month on the calendar. in a month from now we will be celebrating a new year 2008. how fast time flies, so much has happen in so little time and yet still leaving me with an amount of questions still left unanswered...